hether you’ve just had your first baby or your third, you probably have so much going on that it’s hard to know what is a normal amount of stress. You’re feeding, changing, rocking, singing, and cajoling around the clock. You’re eating a banana, nursing, and reading a parenting blog on your phone all at the same time (oh, and you’re in the bathroom). And don’t forget, the kitchen could use some work…
This is a stressful time, and it’s normal to feel overwhelmed, worried, tired, and moody. That being said, it isn’t normal to feel like there’s no escape from these emotions – to feel like your old self has been lost and that you are trapped with no way of getting on top of things. It is not normal to feel no hope or enjoyment, to be angry all the time, or to be unable to sleep, even when you’re exhausted and your baby is asleep.
There are some incredibly unhelpful (and contradictory) myths about postpartum depression, anxiety, and new parenthood in general floating around out there:
In my experience, the truth is somewhere in the middle, and the mixture is different for every new parent. It’s important to remember that no new mom feels completely blissed out all the time – but it also isn’t normal to be struggling all the time.
So, now that you know the myths, let’s talk about the facts. The normal period of emotional upheaval in the first few weeks after having a baby is known as “baby blues,” and technically affects about 85% of new moms. Frankly, I think that the number is more like 100% of new moms. I have yet to meet a mom who describes her transition into motherhood as smooth and unmemorable.
Here are some normal things you might experience during your first month as a new parent:
All new parents struggle to get enough sleep; plus, even if you are getting enough hours of sleep, broken sleep (getting up every few hours) is less restorative. Newborns require a lot from you physically: soothing, feeding, and holding them is draining. This gets better with time, and if you find that most of the time you can sleep when your baby is sleeping, and you are eating healthy food regularly, these are good signs.
This is likely the biggest life adjustment you have experienced to date. You’re trying to comprehend what being a parent means to you, the loss of your freedom, and the loss of your old identity. It may be that parts of this process have not been like you thought they would be, whether in pregnancy, birth, or after.
Physically (no matter your method of delivery), your body is trying to heal and recover, and is experiencing a rapid hormone dump. When you are pregnant, the levels of hormones such as estrogen, progesterone, and endorphins (endorphins make you feel good and reduce anxiety) slowly increase in your body throughout the pregnancy. After you give birth the level of these hormones drops quickly, which can contribute to feeling pretty awful emotionally.
There is a lot to learn in a very short period with a new baby. If this is your first baby, you’re trying to figure out how to know what they need, when they need it, and how to provide it. If this is not your first, you’re learning how to care for a newborn (who may have a different temperament than your first) and still care for and interact with your older kid(s) at the same time.
It’s also normal for new parents to have anxiety about their baby’s health, feeding, and sleeping. It doesn’t help that we live in a society that tends to reinforce these fears by plastering warnings on everything and making all parenting decisions sound like life and death. These feelings are normal as long as they are not constant and other’s peoples’ assurances help to calm you down.
It is common for new moms to experience a change in appetite. Breastfeeding moms need to be taking in more calories to support milk production. Often, the business of being a new parent means that you forget to eat, so fluctuations in appetite are normal (but try to remember to eat, it will help your mental and physical health).
Being a parent of a newborn is an isolating experience. It can be a logistical nightmare to get a baby out of the house. Also, your friends and family may not be in a similar stage of life and aren’t always aware of the challenges of getting out as a new parent. It is harder during this time to see people and go to social events.
Lack of sleep, being uncomfortable physically, and the unpredictable nature of newborns (crying for 4 hours straight must be some kind of record) all make it easy to feel frustrated at yourself, your partner, and your newborn.
The important thing to remember about these symptoms is that they should come and go, start getting better after a few weeks, and go away entirely by about a month after having your baby.
So, when is it not normal? I want you to remember something important here: you know you better than anyone else – if things feel off and you don’t feel like yourself and haven’t for quite a while, trust yourself.
There isn’t a magic tipping point where you suddenly qualify for help because now you are struggling enough. If you are struggling and you feel like you could use some help, that’s all that matters.
On the other hand, many moms are so preoccupied with the business of being a parent that they don’t notice that something’s off, or they don’t feel like they can take the time to examine their own needs. Often, it is your friends and family who notice that you don’t seem like yourself. If you are struggling, talk to the people who are close to you and really listen to what they have to say – they care about you and want you to feel well.
These are some signs to pay attention to and that may indicate that you are dealing with more than the baby blues:
You will be tired as a new parent, but if you’re finding that you can’t sleep, even when the baby is sleeping and even when you are exhausted, that is cause for concern.
If you are experiencing mood swings that are very dramatic (for example, screaming at your partner, quickly followed by dissolving into tears), feeling angry or deeply sad most of the time, or crying for hours and feeling like you can’t stop, all of these can be signs of needing additional support.
It’s important to pay attention if you are finding that nothing gives you pleasure anymore and there doesn’t seem to be anything that motivates you to get out of bed each day.
Every new parent feels stuck and discouraged at times; however, if you are finding that you can’t see any way through your current problems and feel like there is no hope that things will ever improve, it may be time to reach out for more help.
Most people, and especially new parents, have occasional scary thoughts that pop into their heads, but they are brief and go away quickly. It isn’t normal to have scary thoughts that pop up all the time, intrude on your life, and cause you to change your routine (for example, checking on your baby every 10 minutes while she is sleeping, or never taking your baby up a flight of stairs).
Please note: you are not going to lose your baby simply because you have had scary thoughts about hurting him or her, but it is important that you see a mental health professional so that you can talk through them and get some peace and relief. If you are seriously concerned that you actively want to hurt yourself or your baby, then it is important to call 911.
Any persistent negative, uncomfortable feelings that last beyond the first month and don’t seem to be getting better on their own are a good reason to seek help.
If any of this resonates with you, I want you to understand: postpartum depression and anxiety are very treatable. With help, you will get better. In the meantime, here are some suggestions to take care of yourself (attention all mamas, these are useful tips no matter how much you are struggling!) and to get the support you need:
Having a new baby is a wild and fascinating journey, but it is not meant to be a time of constant misery and struggle. You deserve to be well and whole enough to climb all the mountains and enjoy the views from the top.